Tuesday, September 23, 2008

A day for remembering

I haven't posted in quite awhile and I have a lot to say and I will get to those things in the next few days. Today is a day for remembering. Our first son Braxton passed away 12 years ago today. He was born with breathing problems. We spent a week at the hospital here and then 12 weeks at PMC in SLC and then 4 days back here. He ended up with a secondary infection of pneumonia and passed away from complications of that. I can't believe how quickly that time has gone. They were never able to completely diagnosis what he had. He was just a one in a million. This is the day that I listen to all the songs that mean something to me. I think sad thoughts and think about how much I miss him. My kids know all about their big brother and we look forward to being a forever family. Tomorrow is another day. And one more year passing brings us one more year closer to being with him again.


Priscilla, Chris and four miniatures said...

This post made me cry. I can't imagine going through that pain. Thinking about the possibility of something like that happening puts everything else in a whole new perspective. You are a strong woman and mother and have a great family.

Jenny said...

I am so sorry for your tears and pain today. My heart broke for you when I heard your story and I have such admiration for you and Dustin that you were able to move forward and have room in your broken hearts for happiness again. You are obviously such a strong woman and mother, and I think you are both wise and brave to allow yourself to feel grief and sadness today. I hope that when the sun raises in the morning you can feel a renewed sense of peace and comfort. I can't even imagine how wonderful that first moment will be someday when you get to hold your beautiful son in your arms once again!

Kristy said...

I love that song you have on your play list by Kenny Chesney, I can't remember the name. But it something like "what you would have been". Yep that ones makes me think of you and cry! Love ya.