Tuesday, September 23, 2008

A day for remembering



I haven't posted in quite awhile and I have a lot to say and I will get to those things in the next few days. Today is a day for remembering. Our first son Braxton passed away 12 years ago today. He was born with breathing problems. We spent a week at the hospital here and then 12 weeks at PMC in SLC and then 4 days back here. He ended up with a secondary infection of pneumonia and passed away from complications of that. I can't believe how quickly that time has gone. They were never able to completely diagnosis what he had. He was just a one in a million. This is the day that I listen to all the songs that mean something to me. I think sad thoughts and think about how much I miss him. My kids know all about their big brother and we look forward to being a forever family. Tomorrow is another day. And one more year passing brings us one more year closer to being with him again.

3 comments:

Priscilla, Chris and four miniatures said...

This post made me cry. I can't imagine going through that pain. Thinking about the possibility of something like that happening puts everything else in a whole new perspective. You are a strong woman and mother and have a great family.

Jenny said...

I am so sorry for your tears and pain today. My heart broke for you when I heard your story and I have such admiration for you and Dustin that you were able to move forward and have room in your broken hearts for happiness again. You are obviously such a strong woman and mother, and I think you are both wise and brave to allow yourself to feel grief and sadness today. I hope that when the sun raises in the morning you can feel a renewed sense of peace and comfort. I can't even imagine how wonderful that first moment will be someday when you get to hold your beautiful son in your arms once again!

Kristy said...

I love that song you have on your play list by Kenny Chesney, I can't remember the name. But it something like "what you would have been". Yep that ones makes me think of you and cry! Love ya.